12 Reasons why I deactivated Instagram

1. Instagram is very accessible so I would reach for it as soon as I wake up or when I can’t sleep at night. And it is definitely not an ideal way to start the day or end it.
2. I waste so much time on the app, even though I had only intended to check the new posts. This happens as a result of checking the popular page and/or checking friends of friends.
3. Comparing my life to my friends (and their friends’ lives).
4. Comparing my life to celebrities and Instagram personalities (who often pose and project fake standards).
5. Becoming addicted to likes (there is a scientific study to support that), peoples’ approval, and popularity.
6. Comparing my Instagram’s popularity to my friends.
7. It’s a great source of gossip.
8. I value my privacy (and even though I am often tempted to post, It doesn’t agree with my nature).
9. It could stir up past wounds like if I’m following an ex boyfriend, or ex best friend.
10. It conditions my brain to want to seek peoples’ approval.
11. It could devalue a  great activity just because it doesn’t look attractive on camera.
12. It makes my brain filled with other people, their lives, and fake standards.
13. IG tailors the popular page towards your interests which made me spend so much time on the app (Also, I followed some positive accounts that show street animals and their transformation so my popular page was filled with pictures of animal cruelty that was a source of sudden mental and emotional anguish for me).

I just woke up and felt like writing this post cause I have been going back and forth between deactivating and activating my account. Recently, I activated my account after a long period of withdrawing from IG, and I started noticing how negative my thought process has become. I am sure not everyone uses IG negatively but I feel like most are. This post is very scattered but I hope your enjoy it anyway.

They call me Conceited… *rolls eyes*

Alright, so in case you missed my banner, let me remind you.
I’m a beauty queen.
I’m like the the physical embodiment of beauty on Earth.
Need I say more??!!

Just kidding, I’m not THAT vain, but I’ll admit I’m a little conceited. But why should you hate me for it. I only love myself and I think am beautiful. What’s wrong with that? I mean you hear people everyday talking about low self-esteem and negative body image and how everyone should love themselves and then one does it and BAAAAAAAM, they’re instantly labeled “conceited”. I never said that everyone else was ugly. On the contrary, I constantly compliment my friends and tell them they’re beautiful (even if I don’t really mean it. lol). I just like to encourage people and make them feel better.
Sometimes, I’ll be like, “That guy have like the biggest crush on me, but obviously he doesn’t talk to me cause he’s intimated by my looks” haha. They think am so conceited haha. But, it’s not my fault that everywhere I go people love to stare at me (even in my most ugliest days) and that I make clothes look really good. Or that random people stop me at odd moments just to compliment me, and mind you when that happens, it makes me so happy and I find something beautiful in them and compliment them back. I’m so grateful for that because sometimes I can be having the worst days and when I hear those kind words, my spirit is totally lifted and I’m so cheered up.
In conclusion, I am conceited but I’m NOT, by no mean, arrogant in anyway. I talk to anyone and everyone and I respect everyone.
People shouldn’t hate me cause am conceited, they should hate me cause I’m a bitch. JK. AM NOT! lol

P.s. my favorite compliment thus far has to be the one I received from my photography professor some years ago, he told me, “You should be a spy, cause you always look so different. One day you look elegant, the other you look like a beach bum…” lol. I’d like to think of this as a truly sound and legit compliment cause he’s a photographer so he really “sees” things haha

xoxoxoxox