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Weight of the World

Minute: 18:30 to 20:20

“You’re pressure is trying to point to something. So many in my life the reason that I was under pressure is because I was full of pride. He said, “We have this power, this treasure in earthen vessels”, or vessels of clay. An ordinary vessel and it’s an extra ordinary power. And so I am an ordinary person with an extra ordinary promise of the presence of God. But sometimes I get confused and I forget that I am just the pot, I am not the power. And sometimes I get so burdened because I put  the weight of the world on my shoulders and carry a cross that I am not strong to carry, that has already been carried for me. So I am under pressure sometimes because I am full of pride. And sometimes not all the time, pressure comes into your life not because of what you’re handling but because of how you’re handling it: you forgot your source (Jesus) and you lose strength. Pressure, pressure sometimes points to pride in your life“.

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  • A similar sermon in Arabic shot in an Egyptian Coptic Church

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“Dear Mother and Dad:

It has been three months since I left for college. I have been remiss in writing and I am very sorry for my thoughtlessness in not having written before. I will bring you up to date now, but before you read on, please sit down. You are not to read any further unless you are sitting down, okay.

Well then, I am getting along pretty well now. The skull fracture and the concussion I got when I jumped out of the window of my dormitory when it caught fire shortly after my arrival are pretty well healed by now. I only spent two weeks in the hospital and now I can see almost normally and only get those headaches once a day.

Fortunately, the fire in the dormitory and my jump was witnessed by an attendant at the gas station near the dorm, and he was the one who called the Fire Dept. and the ambulance. He also visited me at the hospital and since I had nowhere to live because of the burnt out dormitory, he was kind enough to invite me to share his apartment with him. It’s really a basement room, but it’s kind of cute. He is a very fine boy and we have fallen deeply in love and are planning to get married. We haven’t set the exact date yet, but it will be before my pregnancy begins to show.

Yes, mother and dad, I am pregnant. I know how very much you are looking forward to being grandparents and I know you will welcome the baby and give it the same love and devotion and tender care you gave me when I was a child. The reason for the delay in our marriage is that my boyfriend has some minor infection which prevents us from passing our premarital blood tests and I carelessly caught it from him. This will soon clear up with the penicillin injections I am now taking daily.

I know you will welcome him into the family with open arms. He is kind and although not well educated, he is ambitious. Although he is of a different race and religion than ours, I know that your oft-expressed tolerance will not permit you to be bothered by the fact that his skin color is somewhat darker than ours. I am sure you will love him as I do. His family background is good too, for I am told his father is an important gunbearer in the village in Africa from which he comes.

Now that I have brought you up to date, I want to tell you there was no dormitory fire; I did not have a concussion or a skull fracture; I was not in the hospital; I am not pregnant; I am not engaged. I do not have syphillis, and there is no man in my life. However, I am getting a D in sociology and an F in science; and I wanted you to see these marks in proper perspective.

Your loving daughter,”

Day 6: The Hardest Thing I’ve Ever Experienced

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Dear Wonderful Reader,

That would be being hooked up on a guy for 6 years who was not worth it. I do regret that time spent. All the mental and physical energy that was spent on him. In fact I am so over this experience now that I can’t write about with the same passion. That in itself makes me happy because It shows how far I have come and how I was able to put the past behind me. This gives me hope that I could overcome anything, however big it seems at the time. And I did learn a lot from this experience and I am bitter about it anymore.

Whatever you’re going through, remember the power of time. So It’s okay to be sad, bored, or after the guy or people, but let that time be entirely spent on them. Feel the emotions you want to feel but please work to achieve your goals and dream at the same time.

 

Blog Challenge, Day 2: My 3 Biggest Fears

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Dear Wonderful Reader,

As much as I want to make this blog a happy place, I want to connect with you by opening myself and sharing things that I find myself very uncomfortable to admit pondering about or materialize in writing or conversation. Its easy to talk about external things, but extremely difficult to be open and vulnerable. Though, I believe that with great risks, comes great results. I find writing very therapeutic and a great way to unknot our thoughts and emotions buried deep inside.

Based on the views, I know that I have a lot of silent readers (I am a silent reader to many blogs too) but I would love to hear from you on this. Yes, I’m talking to you! What are you biggest fears?

. Death

Not my own death but others’. I don’t know when exactly did this became a fear of mine, but I believe that this is an innate fear in everyone even those who claim that they could make sense of it. God is truly my only solace and confidant when it comes to this fear. This train of thought could make me feel panicky and disturb my peace easily but one thing I know is that God will never give more than I can handle and that He’ll always be there.

. Losing Love

I think love is the greatest pleasure on Earth and I spent many years suffering it’s absence. I think love is THE source for support and hope. We all know how losing (romantic) love can be tragic and could make one feel like there is nothing left to live for (Emo Alert). I have a lot of emotions to express but I can’t seem to find the words. It’s like there is an iceberg within my emotions and thoughts. The pressure is definitely building and soon they will burst into words……. But, yes the aforementioned is one of my greatest fears.

. Becoming contaminated by this world: losing sight of what truly matters.

“True devotion, the kind that is pure and faultless before God the Father, is this: to care for orphans and widows in their difficulties and to keep the world from contaminating us.” (James 1: 27)

This is my prayer: that your love might become even more and more rich with knowledge and all kinds of insight. I pray this so that you will be able to decide what really matters and so you will be sincere and blameless on the day of Christ. I pray that you will then be filled with the fruit of righteousness, which comes from Jesus Christ, in order to give glory and praise to God.” (Philippians 1: 9-11)

The first scripture touches me deeply because being contaminated by this world and it’s standards is one of my fears. I always want to keep my mind on higher things and go against the current if need be, but quiet frankly this is easier said than done due to peer pressure, wanting approval and praise from others, instant gratification, satisfying my flesh, etc…

I love the second scripture and It has a special place in my heart. It’s truly the perfect prayer to pray for anyone (thanks Paul!). I love how Paul wishes that our love would “grow rich with knowledge… and insights” because it shows the intensity and complexity of love. In a way, It also explains that there is a correlation between love and wisdom. For example, you could be doing something good for someone that you love and It could look like a completely different thing to them or to onlookers. More over, it depicts love as a journey and the more we walk deeper in love, the more enjoyable and meaningful it becomes.

“….that you will be able to decide what really matters”. I LOVE this piece of scripture so much. I wish that God would give me this kind of wisdom. This links to James 1:27,  because If we are able to discern between what really matters and what doesn’t then we won’t be contaminated by this world.

(Let’s just say, I’d hate to wake up and find myself like a character in a reality show)

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Justin Timberlake Says it Better

[Verse 1]
Said all I want from you is to see you tomorrow
And every tomorrow, maybe you’ll let me borrow your heart
And is it too much to ask for every Sunday
And while we’re at it, throw in every other day to start

I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, and you’re bleeding
But I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
‘Cause baby you’re worth it

[Chorus]
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me

[Verse 2]
Now how about I’d be the last voice you hear tonight?
And every other night for the rest of the nights that there are
Every morning I just wanna see you staring back at me
‘Cause I know that’s a good place to start

I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, and you’re bleeding
Don’t you know that I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
‘Cause baby you’re worth it

[Chorus]
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me
(Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me)

No I won’t fill your mind
With broken promises and wasted time
And if you fall, you’ll always land right in these arms
These arms of mine

[Chorus]
Don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me

Saying I Love You First…

I love you!

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I know that women aren’t supposed to say I love you first, but I am down to break all the rules here. I just wanted you to know that I love you… You’re probably freaked out, but I just can’t imagine saying that to anyone except you. And even though we may not be on the same page yet, I am not ashamed of how I feel about you. I don’t wanna fight my feelings for you, I wanna nurture them because they’re beautiful.  And don’t you worry about hurting me and all that BS, because I can take care of myself pretty well. (And why do you assume I’ll be the one getting hurt anyways?!) But, I choose to be here because I want to and I want YOU. I can easily divert my attention from this, live my life (like I was before), and have this with someone new. But, I just don’t see the point cause I already have this with you and I want you and (baby) you’re worth it.

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All I want from you is to see you… Let’s just hang out and see how it goes…just go with it and trust me, it won’t be so bad ;)!”

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“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”

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LIFE IS SO beautiful. So full of magic and possibilities.

Dear Wonderful Reader,

LIFE IS SO beautifulSo full of magic and possibilities. When Billy died, I thought that my story had come to an end. But I was wrong.

Joe helped me to find something I had lost along the way.  Something I’d once believed so strongly: that the storms of life are bound to come, but maybe even in the storms, in the loneliest  times of all, you’re never really alone.

Love is the most powerful thing on Earth. I’ve seen what it can do. And it can do amazing things. Sometimes I imagine a world where everyone knows of a love that’s unconditional. And what a beautiful world it is.

I think Billy had it right, that there truly is enough love to go around. All you have to do is share it.

What is God’s love is like the sun constant and unchanging? What if you woke up one day and realized…nothing can take away?”

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P.S. Watch this life-transforming movie as soon as you can. Also there is a book version!