Nostalgia

My boyfriend’s cons I

1. he never said he was “in love” with me
2. he never surprised me
3. he always behaved like coming to see me was the biggest shore, because he had to battle traffic. A few times he would just sit there and be completely quiet in a crappy mood. One time that made me cry in public and instead of apologizing and comforting me, I had to spell out for him what he was doing and he just said that he doesn’t know why he is this way.
4. i had to say I love you first (though, i don’t think i meant it, i think i was just waiting to feel something or to move him or add some excitement to the relationship, that was a con of mine but i will get to that list in a different post).
5. he said he loved a year and a half later into the relationship but i felt like it lacked passion and vulnerability that comes with saying those 3 words. To his defense, i didn’t say it back to him. The uttering of those words didn’t move me or cause fireworks or anything. In fact, i don’t i had been eager for him to say. i always reminded myself that he hadn’t said it back when i said it to him and that was weird that it was taking him this long but that was just another flaw, i don’t think i looked forward to that moment. I also, didn’t say it back when he said it, which troubled me actually. i should have said it back without thinking, but for some reason i felt like if i did it would felt forced.
6. after that, when i he would call and i would end our calls with a causal “love you”, he would never say it back. And i wasn’t lying i guess i love him in a way i love a best friend.
7. he NEVER eagerly kissed me. In fact even time i would kiss him goodbye, i had to initiate it. and i would bring up this subject, he would say that he isn’t a teenager who can just sit there and make to for hours, but i wasn’t asking him to make out. it was just weird to me that i never felt that he HAD to kiss me or even wanted to.

Loner work lunch 5

Dearly beloved,

Dearly beloved,

If this love only exists in my dreams, don’t wake me up…

Justin Timberlake Says it Better

[Verse 1]
Said all I want from you is to see you tomorrow
And every tomorrow, maybe you’ll let me borrow your heart
And is it too much to ask for every Sunday
And while we’re at it, throw in every other day to start

I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, and you’re bleeding
But I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
‘Cause baby you’re worth it

[Chorus]
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me

[Verse 2]
Now how about I’d be the last voice you hear tonight?
And every other night for the rest of the nights that there are
Every morning I just wanna see you staring back at me
‘Cause I know that’s a good place to start

I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone cuts your heart open with a knife, and you’re bleeding
Don’t you know that I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
‘Cause baby you’re worth it

[Chorus]
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me
(Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me)

No I won’t fill your mind
With broken promises and wasted time
And if you fall, you’ll always land right in these arms
These arms of mine

[Chorus]
Don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
‘Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true, with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It’s not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
Not such a bad thing to fall in love with me

Saying I Love You First…

“I love you!

I know that women aren’t supposed to say I love you first, but I am down to break all the rules here. I just wanted you to know that I love you… You’re probably freaked out, but I just can’t imagine saying that to anyone except you. And even though we may not be on the same page yet, I am not ashamed of how I feel about you. I don’t wanna fight my feelings for you, I wanna nurture them because they’re beautiful.  And don’t you worry about hurting me and all that BS, because I can take care of myself pretty well. (And why do you assume I’ll be the one getting hurt anyways?!) But, I choose to be here because I want to and I want YOU. I can easily divert my attention from this, live my life (like I was before), and have this with someone new. But, I just don’t see the point cause I already have this with you and I want you and (baby) you’re worth it.

Unless you wanna say goodbye, in which case I will accept your decision…

All I want from you is to see you… Let’s just hang out and see how it goes…just go with it and trust me, it won’t be so bad ;)!”

-Unknown

 

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”

-Eleonor Roosevelt

 

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Dear Wonderful Reader,

I feel really strongly about this song at this moment, and I wanna share it with you.

Suit Case by The New Electric Sound

Wake me in the morning
I don’t want to sleep very long.
I’ll unpack my suitcase
only if you you pick up the phone.

Only if we could say we’re sorry.
Only if we could say we’re not.
Only if you could say you loved me.
Only if I was the one.

Wake me in the evening
I don’t wan’t to get out of bed.
I’ll pick up my laundry
only if you open the door.

Only if we could say we’re sorry.
Only if we could say we’re not.
Only if you could say you loved me.
Only if I was the one.

I don’t want to waste my time.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.
I don’t want to close my eyes.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.

Wake me in the weekend,
I don’t care if sleep too long,
I’ll take out the garbage,
Only if you pick up that phone.

Only if we could say we’re sorry.
Only if we could say we’re not.
Only if you could say you loved me.
Only if I was the one.

I don’t want to waste my time.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.
I don’t want to close my eyes.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.

I told you I’m never gonna leave again.
And I swear.
You told me your never gonna cheat again.
I don’t care.
Tell my heart a million times,
and that won’t change me none.
If we need some time to think girl,
you’re not the one.

I don’t want to waste my time.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.
I don’t want to close my eyes.
I just want to dance all night.
I don’t want to wait for you all of my life.

P.S. Check out their music, those guys are the bomb.com

Family

I love my family.

I should nicer to my siblings.

I should be more helpful toward my parents.

Love this hilarious card:

Lunch: Persian Food

The picture doesn’t do it justice. It was so delicious!!

Strawberry and Nutella French Crepes

mmmm so delii ❤