Dear Wonderful Reader,
Getting packages in the mail is always exciting; especially when you’re anticipating something as fun and profound as this journal.
Dear Wonderful Reader,
You know when you meet someone so, so dumb and you wonder in you head, “how did you make it on Earth for that long?!” Or someone so, so beautiful– needless to say, its the reaction people get when they see me– and they wonder in their heads “how can she not be famous already?!” Jk! Or someone so evil, so horrible, so nasty and you’re just like, “how did you survive Karma all that long?! You gotta be on Karma’s top 20 list!” And then you start pondering the future of humanity with them in it and think how can such people ACTUALLY EXIST IN THE WORLD! Well, those were my exact thoughts too when this happened…
A couple days ago, we got a phone call from my sister, shortly after she left for work. Unfortunately, we learned that she got in a major car crash that involved two other cars. But, don’t worry, she’s okay and apparently the other two drivers were okay too, though one of them practiced her acting skills as soon as the ambulance arrived, in hopes of “milking” the situation *rolls eyes. Upon hearing the news, my father and I rolled out of bed (well, just me honestly, he was already dressed and ready to carpe diem) and drove to her rescue. My dad still thinks she’s a little girl (she’s 22) who doesn’t know how to handle such situations. (Mind you, I rolled out really quickly and didn’t even brush my teeth, cause my dad was rushing me. My morning breath was tolerable bur the worst part was how I didn’t have time to put on a bra and how uncomfortable I felt during the drive and how much I strongly disliked gravity at those moments…) Anyways, we arrived there safely and pulled up in the first left lane (if you’re unfamiliar with California freeways, this is the fastest lane, located on the very far left and then you have a cement fence that separates the freeway from the opposite-direction traffic) and went out to seize her and see what the hell happened…
Here is a little visual aid for you to help you get a clearer, less distorted perspective of the situation on hand.
As we were standing in the midst of this destruction and despair, some and I mean quiet a few of the drivers passing by were yelling unkind words like “IDIOTS”, “STOP TEXTING”, and some were doing the loud HAHAHA evil-witch laugh to our faces. In fact, at one point some (weirdo) driver drove extra slowly and was genuinely angry because we had occupied the first lane and thus caused a traffic delay. As if we were doing that on purpose!!
I had so much to say, so much. But I let my shirt do the talking for me.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have one of those on hand but I made a mental note to get me one as soon as I get home. Though honestly, I did my fair share of flipping the bird to them; sorry to distort the image of a respectable, well-mannered blogger in your head, but I gotta be real.
In all seriousness though, when I (and I don’t claim to be Buddha or anything) see car accidents anywhere, the first thing I do is pray for them in my head asking God to be with them, hoping that no one was injured or God forbid dead (Well, the first thing I REALLY do is thank Him that it wasn’t me). And I am sure that is the natural response because all my family and friends do the same. BUT THOSE PEOPLE THAT DELIGHT IN OTHER PEOPLE’ MISERY? HOW CAN THEY EXIST? HOW CAN THEY BE ALLOWED TO PROCREATE? I know that the world is full of ugly things and people but I’m always shocked to experience them first hand. And you know maybe if that was an enemy of theirs, then I’d understand if they took delight in his misery; though that would be still messed up. But, we were just random strangers and It’s scary to think that those people live among us and their nastiness just comes out at you in our most vulnerable moments.
But, all we, Warriors of Light gotta do is smile and politely say “F*** Y**” and let them nasty people go on their way with their nastiness. Remind ourselves not to let anyone steal our happiness or our peace. And when we go home we pray because prayer is truly the most invincible weapon against all evil. Even though us, Warriors of Light, are forgetful sometimes and we forget that. But we know that at the end, we won’t be defeated! Because good ALWAYS defeats evil.
“In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” (John 16: 33)
” When I despair, I reme,her that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they can seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall. Think of it–always.”
You know guys those days that start out being good and you feel good but then one little thing happen that makes you feel unsettled. It’s funny cause I didn’t know how sad I felt until later.
When I feel down or sad, often times I don’t express it to others because I want them to have a positive and a stronger impression of me. Also, because I’m the one who often tell people to keep strong and faithful. I keep it to myself because sometimes I feel like if I expressed it verbally to people, it somehow becomes more real. And sometimes, I just suppress my sadness and embrace optimism. Though, sometimes I feel like it shows on me anyway.
Lately, I have been expressing my gratitude, sadness, and despair through a little aqua journal called “Letters to God”. The journal is super cool and it’s shaped as an envelope and every page has a a different bible verse. I like this journal a lot because I always thought that a journal is only for weak people and I refuse to think I’m weak. Also, I never saw the point of documenting sad memories because that makes them sadder.
So In my “Letters to God” journal, I write letters to God and converse with him. I love this journal so much because knowing that I’m writing letters to God makes me express myself to the fullest and throw everything on him. This journal makes me seriously weep and cry sometimes, and sometimes it makes me smile if I saw that something I had asked from God had already happened.
I just finished my letter to God today and I was weeping so hard but I feel so much better and I hope God will be by my side in the next few days and forever.
Now, I’m going to list the verses or quotes that were on the journal pages I filled up today just for inspiration:
1. In place of our exhaustion and fatigue, God will give us rest. All he asks is that we come to him … that we spend a while thinking about him, mediating on him, talking to him, listening in silence. Charles Swindoll
2. Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18