Where there was death, You brought life, Lord
Where there was fear, You brought courage
When I was afraid, You were with me
And You lifted me up, and You lifted me up
What do you guys do first thing in the morning to start the day on a good note?
Today, I found myself clung to my phone browsing the internet and forgetting my priorities. The dangerous thing wasn’t the aimless browsing but it was embarking on the “negative” websites that one tend to find spontaneously on the web. I researched problems instead of solutions, illness instead of healing and I felt like I am not setting a good tone for the day.
How do you guys spend your first hour of waking? How should I spend my morning?
I didn’t know that this moment would be carved in my memory until today, but it is. One time my brother and I were driving home after attempting to Christmas shop at an expensive mall (South Coast Plaza, CA). The drive home was traffic-filled and we got to talking about random stuff then somehow the conversation shifted as it always does after being trapped in a car long enough with someone close to you to Life and The Big Picture.
He told that he thought that Faith was truly the greatest virtue. Heck, he said it was the greatest word. It was the vehicle to everything and through everything. It was the vehicle to God.
I never understood then that this moment would stay with me so much but here it is echoing in my brain every second in this trying time in my life.
Some people seem to be gifted with this virtue. Or maybe I just don’t know the arduous journey they had to go through to acquire it. I find myself thinking that I have faith, only to find it how little I have it when I experience trials.
I am facing a great trial right now. I NEED to have faith. I need faith. I need you guys to tell me anything that would help me. I need to learn about your life experiences and how you have the faith that you have.
I need to see God through your experiences.
Please share your thoughts and pay for me.
Good morning Wonderful Reader,
This angel’s name is Snow White, she’s a ten year old mini poodle. she’s avaliable for adoption at the Downey Animal Care Center (California, USA). If you’re looking to add joy and happiness to your life Snow White is your girl. Also if you can’t adopt please network this sweet lady by sharing this video with your friends on this blog or Facebook . Also if you know of a rescue group for poodles in California please leave me a comment and I will contact them. It’s one of my goals to rescue this angel but I can’t do it alone. Let’s save Snow White people and give her the love she deserves!!! 😍 (before it’s too late!!!!!) Snow White is an owner surrender 😡😡😡 (heartless people who are undeserved of Snow White) and she is spayed. I called the shelter and it turns out she’s a staff’s favorite!!!
Downey Animal Care Center
11258 S Garfield Ave
Southgate, CA 90242
Dear Wonderful Reader,
This is probably the most intimate post I’ll ever write in this blog. Please excuse its lack of structure and the grammatical and spelling errors. I don’t even know how to start it. I may cut into parts cause I have so much to say.
“Health and happiness” is a phrase that we hear often and it suggests a strong correlation between the two states and that the two go hand in hand. It means that as long as one is healthy one is happy and if one is happy then one is healthy. Well… that wasn’t my case. Lately I have been sad… very sad. Even when the moment I am is good and I am surrounded by my family or on vacation, I was depressed. I just couldn’t shake off my thoughts which instantly translates to tears and mental anguish.
God I have so much to say and don’t know where to start.
I guess I want to be clear and get to the point.
The point is that I have decided to become a vegetarian today.
I want to eventually go vegan but I have to take things step by step.
Growing up, I didn’t have any pets and wasn’t an animal lover. I had a classmate who loved animals and thought that was kinda weird. I never gave the situation any thought nor did I ever feel bad about it. I used to even get scared from dogs and would want them locked away when I would visit relatives who had them.
I guess It all started when I saw one of those depressing PETA commercials (which I thank God for now because they do raise awareness) and I made a small donation to PETA. The very next day my brother got us a puppy from his friend. My love for animals started growing at this moment.
Then my sister rescued a tiny dog from the street that I grow to LOVE so endlessly. Spending time with my dog taught me so much about animals and COMPLETELY changed my perspective. My dog is just like a human expect she doesn’t talk. She cries when I seep without her on the bed. She feels love, excitement, hunger, thirst, sleepiness, energy, and most importantly pain. I remember how she gets one of her paws stuck on one of the carpet threads and she was panicking and crying until we cleared it. I never thought about it but animals are as sensitive to pain as humans are. Animals are just like humans. Except they’re loyal, loving, helpless, venerable, voiceless, and lead miserable lives and die worse deaths. I know I am being cynical here. But to be frank, animals are better than a lot of people on this plant.
I digress, but to continue…. I don’t know but I had this thing happen to me during like March of this year where I’d always notice road kills and it would literally break my heart and I would cry and pray about in the car and I just couldn’t shake this imagery out of my head. And if I do succeed in shaking it off, I would a fresh road kill that would bring it all back again.
I know horrible things happen in the world to people and babies and I totally support those causes but the reason why I am so passionate about animals is because animals are helpless, venerable, voiceless, and most people don’t even acknowledge their murder yet alone their rights. At least when a human being dies people mourn them and remember them and honor their bodies. But those animals they get ran over, and people don’t even stop to help them and the poor animal could be slowly dying (can’t move) and then another car runs it over again to finish it off. THEN, all the cars run it over until its flattened to the ground. Am i being dramatic?! I know I sound weird to most people. But I know that this must also affect a few people like it affects me. How could I be expected to not have a heart and forget about the cruelty of how we treat animals. A life just like us. A life that is very sensitive to pain. A life for a meal.
This issue was so big with me that I even expressed to my boss how I am thinking on becoming Vegetarian soon and he mocked me and tried to stir my anger (tongue in cheek) even though it was apparent how much I got upset about this. Its one thing to eat meat and choose not to be vegetarian but its another thing to mock the murder of poor, helpless animals. At this moment I lost so much respect for my boss and eventually was happy that he fired me (me and him had a conflict of character/philosophies and on more than one occasion he told me to tell him that “he was always right”).
Anyways, lately I have been sad and depressed and suffering from extreme mental anguish (especially given the events in China lately). I know that God understands my pain. If I could have this compassion towards his creation then he must have it. If beautiful, GOOD, merciful Jesus could die for us worthless sinners then he must love those animals that I think aren’t evil and are better than many humans. If I, a mere human, could have this tenderness towards animals then God the God of all mercies and grace and compassion must care for them too. I know the Bible doesn’t talk about a specific plan for animals (but it does teach compassion and mercy– I am sure God doesn’t want us to only be compassionate to humans as I am sure its hard to discriminate if you’re compassionate) but I am sure God has one and thats the reason for my hope. I worship a compassionate God who shares my pain. I have been praying hard about this because I lost hope in humanity for a while. I feel guilty and responsible but I am choosing to have faith and trust God. I can’t fathom or fix this cruelty but I could be a small change. Well today I choose to be Vegetarian and to not buy anything leather even as gifts.
Friends…. please educate yourself by watching some videos (just type animal cruelty). I am sure its easier to think this cruelty doesn’t exist and go on our merry way but it d0es and I have faith in you. I really do. I love you!
10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
14 She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.
Dear Wonderful Reader,
As much as I want to make this blog a happy place, I want to connect with you by opening myself and sharing things that I find myself very uncomfortable to admit pondering about or materialize in writing or conversation. Its easy to talk about external things, but extremely difficult to be open and vulnerable. Though, I believe that with great risks, comes great results. I find writing very therapeutic and a great way to unknot our thoughts and emotions buried deep inside.
Based on the views, I know that I have a lot of silent readers (I am a silent reader to many blogs too) but I would love to hear from you on this. Yes, I’m talking to you! What are you biggest fears?
Not my own death but others’. I don’t know when exactly did this became a fear of mine, but I believe that this is an innate fear in everyone even those who claim that they could make sense of it. God is truly my only solace and confidant when it comes to this fear. This train of thought could make me feel panicky and disturb my peace easily but one thing I know is that God will never give more than I can handle and that He’ll always be there.
. Losing Love
I think love is the greatest pleasure on Earth and I spent many years suffering it’s absence. I think love is THE source for support and hope. We all know how losing (romantic) love can be tragic and could make one feel like there is nothing left to live for (Emo Alert). I have a lot of emotions to express but I can’t seem to find the words. It’s like there is an iceberg within my emotions and thoughts. The pressure is definitely building and soon they will burst into words……. But, yes the aforementioned is one of my greatest fears.
. Becoming contaminated by this world: losing sight of what truly matters.
“True devotion, the kind that is pure and faultless before God the Father, is this: to care for orphans and widows in their difficulties and to keep the world from contaminating us.” (James 1: 27)
“This is my prayer: that your love might become even more and more rich with knowledge and all kinds of insight. I pray this so that you will be able to decide what really matters and so you will be sincere and blameless on the day of Christ. I pray that you will then be filled with the fruit of righteousness, which comes from Jesus Christ, in order to give glory and praise to God.” (Philippians 1: 9-11)
The first scripture touches me deeply because being contaminated by this world and it’s standards is one of my fears. I always want to keep my mind on higher things and go against the current if need be, but quiet frankly this is easier said than done due to peer pressure, wanting approval and praise from others, instant gratification, satisfying my flesh, etc…
I love the second scripture and It has a special place in my heart. It’s truly the perfect prayer to pray for anyone (thanks Paul!). I love how Paul wishes that our love would “grow rich with knowledge… and insights” because it shows the intensity and complexity of love. In a way, It also explains that there is a correlation between love and wisdom. For example, you could be doing something good for someone that you love and It could look like a completely different thing to them or to onlookers. More over, it depicts love as a journey and the more we walk deeper in love, the more enjoyable and meaningful it becomes.
“….that you will be able to decide what really matters”. I LOVE this piece of scripture so much. I wish that God would give me this kind of wisdom. This links to James 1:27, because If we are able to discern between what really matters and what doesn’t then we won’t be contaminated by this world.
(Let’s just say, I’d hate to wake up and find myself like a character in a reality show)