(Vomit-Worthy) Love Notes


1. I wanna stare deep in your eyes for hours without talking (Alright maybe like for minutes haha).
2. I promise I will laugh at all your jokes even if they’re not funny (Naaah, I probably won’t).
3. You’ll be my soulmate (aww that’s cute).
4. I wanna make love to you in dark room that only lit by candle lights and conditioned by the summer breath.
5. You’ll inspire me.
6. Despite all strength, you’ll make me weak.
7. I wanna kiss you in the rain (even better than the “The Notebook”). Hell ya fuckin right
8. I wanna paddle away with you and go somewhere surreal and beautiful like they have gone in “The Notebook” and kiss you!!!!!! (Didn’t you say that before).
9. I wanna be absolutely ridiculous with you! (Marilyn Monroe much *raises eyebrows* haha)
10. I wanna listen to “The Cure” music with you. (I def. had a major Cure phase some months ago)

A romantic list I conducted some month ago along with my current reflection haha
It’s always funny and a little embarrassing to look back at things you wrote.

Hamlet Victorian Wisdom


The following passage appears in Hamlet Act 1, Scene 3. In the passage, Polonius is advising his son about life before he sets off to France. It’s one of my favorite passages because it so wise and I wish to live my life that way.

And these few precepts in thy memory
Look thou character. Give thy thoughts no tongue,
Nor any unproportioned thought his act.
Be thou familiar but by no means vulgar.
Those friends thou hast, and their adoption tried,
Grapple them unto thy soul with hoops of steel,
But do not dull thy palm with entertainment
Of each new-hatched, unfledged comrade. Beware
Of entrance to a quarrel, but being in,
Bear ’t that th’ opposèd may beware of thee.
Give every man thy ear but few thy voice.
Take each man’s censure but reserve thy judgment.
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy,
But not expressed in fancy—rich, not gaudy,
For the apparel oft proclaims the man,
And they in France of the best rank and station
Are of a most select and generous chief in that.
Neither a borrower nor a lender be,
For loan oft loses both itself and friend,
And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry.
This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Farewell. My blessing season this in thee.

P.s. Maybe Polonius wasn’t a bad guy after all haha

Jealousy: Boy Meets Girl

Jealousy Sucks:
Jealousy is like the worst feeling ever. Right? Yes, obviously? haha
Why?
Because it makes us act unlike ourselves.
Like I don’t like myself when I’m jealous. I just feel so annoyed like.. like like I can’t even live. You know what I mean. Ughhhh

Boy Meets Girl (personal story)

Boy meets girl on the first day of work. Boy flirts heavily with girl. Boy asks girl to hang out with him after work. Boy and girl do hang out after work in a romantic little garden with trees and a small beautiful lack. Boy cunningly tries to touch girl. Boy begs girl to take off her shades. Girl grow interested in boy. Girl tells boy she has to leave. Boy walks girl to her car. Boy tells girl that she has something in her hair. Boy stretch out his hand to take it out. The air is charged with boy and girl attraction toward each other. Girl thinks, “It feels like a magnet in here” haha. Girl hugs boy goodbye. Boy tries to kiss girl. AKWARD. Girl feels to her. Girl wanted to kiss boy but boy is her co-worker and she barely met him.
Boy and girl hang out for two months.
Boy and girl fight.
Girl stop talking to boy for six months.
Boy and girl still see each other at work but they don’t communicate.
A new chick at work….

To be continued….

“Ring of Fire” Solar Eclipse


How crazy is this picture???!!! Amazing huh

Sunday 20, 2012 is a glorious day in the world of Astronomy because the Ring of Fire happens today. It’s a very rare event that only takes place every several decades. Basically, the moon will cover the Sun and it will create an image that will resemble a ring of fire.
Be sure to check it out if you live in California but make sure that you’re wearing dark shades before hand as it could cause blindness.
If you live elsewhere please tune in online to witness this magnificent happening.

You can watch it live at:
http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2012/05/annular-solar-eclipse/

Wooooh so excited for this, I’m gonna get out and now and check this crazy thing out haha

Would Hate to Look Back on my Life & Say “I Almost Did It”

Moments that make me feel like am living to the fullest:

1. Running to the beach in my bikini and diving in the water.
2. Laughing so hard till my eyes water.
3. Kissing (depends on the person I’m kissing haha)
4. Being in love with someone that loves you back.
5. Receiving that unexpected text or email from someone that you care about.
6. Going on a first date with someone I like (so exciting)
7. Getting an email informing me that my class has been canceled haha (so lame but it makes so happy)
8. Reading a book or watching a movie with a character that totally resembles. (I love how when the feeling I feel when the character finally gets her happy ending cause it feels as I just got my happy ending myself).
9. Making someone’s day (When I feel like I can’t be happy myself, I like to make someone else’s happy because that totally makes me happy somehow lol).
10. Just chilling in my clean room, watching a movie, and sipping on wine. (so simple yet so Serene)

P.s. Sunshine, trees, and the cool breathe are like an instant mood lifters for me. haha

Please share with me the moments that make you feel so alive? Maybe they’ll work for me too lol

xoxoxox
God Bless

My Blog is My Love Child

I love it so so so much.
But, NO ONE should know about it.
Or at least people who directly know me.

I think the beauty of a blog comes from the fact that you can fully express yourself and be who you are and write whatever you want.

I’m not saying that I’m fake or that I pretend to be someone I’m not in real life.

I just feel like if I told people about it, it’s going to affect the way I write. You know the Observer’s Effect stuff haha. You guys know what I mean.

I just feel like a blog is a beautiful way of clearing my mind and setting goals.

Just writing my thoughts on a post makes them more “real” somehow and it makes me more committed to them. For example, If I said that I’m going to clean my room and wrote it in a post, I’m more likely to clean my room than if I just noted that in my head. Sometimes, I need motivation to do the simplest tasks in my life because without taking care of the simple stuff, I don’t feel prepared to tackle bigger projects.

Also I feel like if I wrote about something, I can talk about it to people more clearly and confidently.

Finally, a blog is important because it lets me express my interests and ideas that people in my immediate circle might not find interesting. However, I can gain the motivation needed to continue with my interests through my blog friends.

I know many of you guys feel the same way as me and I would ilke to find out why your blog is important to you??

Lateness…maaaan

“You should be honored by my lateness. That I would even show up to this fake shit”

I love this line because it absolutely describe me. lol
I just wanna be like, ” yes I’m late, but its okay. I’m worth the wait” lol

I’m like ALWAYS late.
I just feel like it runs in my blood.
From the very first day of first grade till like now. (sorry this sound so un-interesting, I just couldn’t finish this sentence cleverly lol)
I’m late to class, work, church, dates, job interviews, finals. You name it I’m late.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
But I swear, I ALWAYS intend to be early. JK. I hate being early.
I ALWAYS intend to be on time.

They make bets at work to see how late I’ll be. lol
I just feel like my internal clock is so dysfunctional like I’d take my time even if I know I’m late. Hurrying up just makes me so panicky.

Even if I’m late, I try to not let myself stress over it, I just walk in, apologize and then proceed gracefully.

Do you guys think I’m crazy, or are you guys the same way?

They call me Conceited… *rolls eyes*

Alright, so in case you missed my banner, let me remind you.
I’m a beauty queen.
I’m like the the physical embodiment of beauty on Earth.
Need I say more??!!

Just kidding, I’m not THAT vain, but I’ll admit I’m a little conceited. But why should you hate me for it. I only love myself and I think am beautiful. What’s wrong with that? I mean you hear people everyday talking about low self-esteem and negative body image and how everyone should love themselves and then one does it and BAAAAAAAM, they’re instantly labeled “conceited”. I never said that everyone else was ugly. On the contrary, I constantly compliment my friends and tell them they’re beautiful (even if I don’t really mean it. lol). I just like to encourage people and make them feel better.
Sometimes, I’ll be like, “That guy have like the biggest crush on me, but obviously he doesn’t talk to me cause he’s intimated by my looks” haha. They think am so conceited haha. But, it’s not my fault that everywhere I go people love to stare at me (even in my most ugliest days) and that I make clothes look really good. Or that random people stop me at odd moments just to compliment me, and mind you when that happens, it makes me so happy and I find something beautiful in them and compliment them back. I’m so grateful for that because sometimes I can be having the worst days and when I hear those kind words, my spirit is totally lifted and I’m so cheered up.
In conclusion, I am conceited but I’m NOT, by no mean, arrogant in anyway. I talk to anyone and everyone and I respect everyone.
People shouldn’t hate me cause am conceited, they should hate me cause I’m a bitch. JK. AM NOT! lol

P.s. my favorite compliment thus far has to be the one I received from my photography professor some years ago, he told me, “You should be a spy, cause you always look so different. One day you look elegant, the other you look like a beach bum…” lol. I’d like to think of this as a truly sound and legit compliment cause he’s a photographer so he really “sees” things haha

xoxoxoxox

Christina in Tribal Yellow

What’s your remedy to feel better when you’re feeling down?

You know guys those days that start out being good and you feel good but then one little thing happen that makes you feel unsettled. It’s funny cause I didn’t know how sad I felt until later.

When I feel down or sad, often times I don’t express it to others because I want them to have a positive and a stronger impression of me. Also, because I’m the one who often tell people to keep strong and faithful. I keep it to myself because sometimes I feel like if I expressed it verbally to people, it somehow becomes more real. And sometimes, I just suppress my sadness and embrace optimism.  Though, sometimes I feel like it shows on me anyway.

Lately, I have been expressing my gratitude, sadness, and despair through a little aqua journal called “Letters to God”. The journal is super cool and it’s shaped as an envelope and every page has a a different bible verse. I like this journal a lot because I always thought that a journal is only for weak people and I refuse to think I’m weak. Also, I never saw the point of documenting sad memories because that makes them sadder.

So In my “Letters to God” journal, I write letters to God and converse with him. I love this journal so much because knowing that I’m writing letters to God makes me express myself to the fullest and throw everything on him. This journal makes me seriously weep and cry sometimes, and sometimes it makes me smile if I saw that something I had asked from God had already happened.

I just finished my letter to God today and I was weeping so hard but I feel so much better and I hope God will be by my side in the next few days and forever.

Now, I’m going to list the verses or quotes that were on the journal pages I filled up today just for inspiration:

1. In place of our exhaustion and fatigue, God will give us rest. All he asks is that we come to him … that we spend a while thinking about him, mediating on him, talking to him, listening in silence. Charles Swindoll

2. Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18