what can i do when i can do nothing?
is there actually an instance where i can only do nothing?
is doing nothing doing something?
is nothing neutral?
or is nothing a negative contribution?
my guilt, powerlessness, lack of creativity and drive are eating at me. i help my friend run his instagram account for a dog rescue overseas and I get tragic messages about animals being poisoned, tortured, and suffering in ways that are unimaginable and in every sense of the word heartbreaking and i can do nothing, being i am 74884957 miles away and have no saying on which cases the rescue can take and the rescue is always full and lacking resources anyways. i see it all happening then I hear about the tragedy that followed because no one moved and I can d nothing. i admit i am a fool. i must be doing something wrong. or going at this wrong. there must be a solution. things shouldn’t be this bleak. I hope i have more faith to be a vessel to the power I know is available to us through Christ and do something about this suffering.
to “live my day in positivity (faith) because that is the only way I can help others”.
find out why in the post below.
Let’s just say I listen to a lot of TED talks.
My office environment is lax, besides the few passive aggressive emails I receive from my (woman) boss every so often. Also, My chatty co-worker just moved cubicles a few weeks ago and now I am all by myself in my cubicle (besides the fact that my other (male) boss could easily tunnel vision me by a simple turn of his head).
So with that said I rejoice in the silence and take full advantage of it filling it with Education. I can’t listen to audiobooks because it is hard to follow sometimes with office interruptions, but I do listen to a lot of TED talks, when I am not busy counting down the minutes to go home, and I actually quiet enjoy them and thankful I am able to.
Here are some of the stuff that stayed with me and I want to share them with you:
Minute: 12:30; https://www.npr.org/player/embed/455644050/455749893
Minute: 22:40; https://www.npr.org/player/embed/464743261/464757243
Hello Wonderful Reader,
I am having the Sunday/Monday blues here. It’s 11:12 pm and I am not looking forward to the next day. I have vowed so many times during HARD TIMES that I would never complain about idiotic, trivial things such as traffic, or a job. BUT, here I am!! In a humble effort I am going to try to shift my perspective by listing the reasons why I am grateful for my job.
- I start at 6:00 am (by choice) and get off at 2:30 pm, which is earlier than most people.
- I can use my headphones at work.
- We have a Keurig machine at work (free coffee).
- My boss is working remotely and only comes 1 week out of the month.
- I have my own big cubicle, that is isolated from all others cubicles (except the fact the GM has tunnel vision to mine).
- I take 40 minutes lunches (instead of 30 minutes).
- I get to run my own meeting every week (which I dread but it is good practice to get out of my comfort zone).
- I get along with a couple of girls at work.
- It is generally a relaxed environment.
- My office is less than 20 people.
- We kinda don’t have a dress code.
- I GET PAID.
Needless to say, and in ALL honesty, I have been burdened by the WEIGHT OF THE WORLD. I have been carrying atrocities and injustices that I have no idea how to even begin fathoming on my shoulders and blaming myself for being human or my apathy. That is why the messages below resonated with so much. My birthday was on the July 29th and this message was preached the next day on a Sunday. I really needed to hear this. I wanna let go. I have a lot on my mind and a lot to unravel in my soul. TBD.