12 Reasons why I deactivated Instagram

Deleting-Instagram

  1. Instagram is very accessible so I would reach for it as soon as I wake up or when I can’t sleep at night. And it is definitely not an ideal way to start the day or end it.
  2. I waste so much time on the app, even though I had only intended to check the new posts. This happens as a result of checking the popular page and/or checking friends of friends.
  3. Comparing my life to my friends (and their friends’ lives).
  4. Comparing my life to celebrities and Instagram personalities (who often pose and project fake standards).
  5. Becoming addicted to likes (there is a scientific study to support that), peoples’ approval, and popularity.
  6. Comparing my Instagram’s popularity to my friends.
  7. It’s a great source of gossip.
  8. I value my privacy (and even though I am often tempted to post, It doesn’t agree with my nature).
  9. It could stir up past wounds like if I’m following an ex boyfriend, or ex best friend.
  10. It conditions my brain to want to seek peoples’ approval.
  11. It could devalue a  great activity just because it doesn’t look attractive on camera.
  12. It makes my brain filled with other people, their lives, and fake standards.
  13. IG tailors the popular page towards your interests which made me spend so much time on the app (Also, I followed some positive accounts that show street animals and their transformation so my popular page was filled with pictures of animal cruelty that was a source of sudden mental and emotional anguish for me).

I just woke up and felt like writing this post cause I have been going back and forth between deactivating and activating my account. Recently, I activated my account after a long period of withdrawing from IG, and I started noticing how negative my thought process has become. I am sure not everyone uses IG negatively but I feel like most are. This post is very scattered but I hope your enjoy it anyway.

Dear Younger Me

Dear younger me
Where do I start
If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far
Then you could be
One step ahead
Of all the painful memories still running thru my head
I wonder how much different things would be
Dear younger me,

Dear younger me
I cannot decide
Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life
Or do I go deep
And try to change
The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me
Even though I love this crazy life
Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride
Dear younger me, dear younger me

If I knew then what I know now
Condemnation would’ve had no power
My joy my pain would’ve never been my worth
If I knew then what I know now
Would’ve not been hard to figure out
What I would’ve changed if I had heard

Dear younger me
It’s not your fault
You were never meant to carry this beyond the cross
Dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

Every mountain every valley
Thru each heartache you will see
Every moment brings you closer
To who you were meant to be
Dear younger me, dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

 

6 Before 26

Ok so I turn 26 on July 29th, so I feel like I am super late into this challenge. But Better.Late_.Than_.Never_

Okaaaay Here I go:

  1. Go to the gym 7 consecutive days.
  2. Clean and reinvent my room to look minimal (by removing stuff from it and not buying more).
  3. Downsize my closet, at least by 3o pieces.
  4. Create a photo album.
  5. Read 1 book in a day (not audio book).
  6. Pray and read the bible for 7 consecutive days.

 

Alright here’s my “simple” list. If I do finish it before my birthday, I’ll come up with a new one and hopefully I could reach 26 before 26.

Plus Size Macy’s $5.59 Winter/Fall Clothing Haul

Dear Wonderful Reader,

Here’s part 2 of my Macy’s haul. I made my mom my model. I hope you enjoy the selection and hopefully this reaches you in time so you could take advantage of this sale.

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I initially bought this for myself but it looked terrible on me because of the fit (see the post before this one), however its great quality and great price ($9 from $99) made it hard for me to give it up. That’s why I was glad when my mom decided to keep it for herself.thumb_DSC_0063_1024thumb_DSC_0061_1024thumb_DSC_0076_1024thumb_DSC_0085_1024

 

I also bought those two shirts for my brothers cause I wanted them to be “twinsies”. They refused to model them for me :(.thumb_DSC_0088_1024

 

Invoice:

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Huge Macy’s $10 Fall/Winter Clothes Haul

Dear Wonderful Reader,

I was inclined to make a huge purchase from Macy’s website because I saw that a lot of great pieces of clothing was marked more or less in the $10 range, all of which are Winter clothes which are usually pretty pricey due to their thick material. Please go ahead and take advantage of this sale if you need to.

Now on to the clothes. Since I bought those online I expected that a few of them will be “hits” and most will be “misses”. I experimented with different colors and sizes knowing that I am not going to keep everything and I’ll just return the “misses” to my local Macy’s which is conveniently located near my house. As long as I return them before I pay my credit card statement, I should be safe and happily enjoy the few bargain pieces I collected. I am very confused as to which pieces to keep. I modeled all the pieces for you to help me decide (and their different sizes/colors). The less number of pieces I keep, the happier my wallet is, so please refrain from saying “that everything looks great” and comments from this variety. I am also going to include my order’s invoice for price reference.

 

Pretty please, WHICH PIECES SHOULD I KEEP?

(If you scroll down you will see their names, should you need to point them out)

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Invoice:

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Shout out to my cousin Jackie for gifting with this beautiful grey tank top that I used as an under shirt in this shoot. Love you cuz ❤

 

 

Feminism

Proverbs 31:10-31

10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.

11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.

12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.

13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.

14 She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar.

15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.

16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.

17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.

18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.

19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.

20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.

21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.

22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.

23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.

24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.

25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.

26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.

27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.

28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.

29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.

30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.

31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

Kindness & Love

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Dear Wonderful Reader,
I finished the book of Proverbs and I had to say that nothing had hit me hard like the last two chapters did. Without further ado, I present to you some of the scripture that touched me.

Ants are creatures of little strength, yet they store up their food in the summer; hyraxes are creatures of little power, yet they make their home in the crags; locusts have no king, yet they advance together in ranks; a lizard can be caught with the hand, yet it is found in kings’ palaces. (Proverbs 30: 25-28)
Commentary: I love this scripture because as soon as I have a good idea or action plan that I get excited about, my brain quickly races to remind me of my flaws, and lack of potential in this certain field. And even after that this phase is passed, it tells me “what if you dedicated all your life to X, do you think that’s going to be enough? How’s one person is going to make an impact in this whole wide world?”. So I love this because the Bible tells us that those creatures though not powerful, they are impressive because of their of their wisdom and they made up for their “weakness” by preparation to a degree that it’s even more expectational than if they were perfect. Love the last verse especially!

If you’ve been foolish and arrogant, if you’ve been scheming, put your hand to your mouth, because churning milk makes curds, squeezing the nose brings blood, and stirring up anger produces strife. (Proverbs 30: 32-33)

Commentary: This scripture plainly and simply tells us that we will reap what we sow. A lesson and a truth that is presented and highlighted in many areas of the Bible. So spread kindness and love so you’ll reap kindness and love too.