Blog Challenge, Day 2: My 3 Biggest Fears


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Dear Wonderful Reader,

As much as I want to make this blog a happy place, I want to connect with you by opening myself and sharing things that I find myself very uncomfortable to admit pondering about or materialize in writing or conversation. Its easy to talk about external things, but extremely difficult to be open and vulnerable. Though, I believe that with great risks, comes great results. I find writing very therapeutic and a great way to unknot our thoughts and emotions buried deep inside.

Based on the views, I know that I have a lot of silent readers (I am a silent reader to many blogs too) but I would love to hear from you on this. Yes, I’m talking to you! What are you biggest fears?

. Death

Not my own death but others’. I don’t know when exactly did this became a fear of mine, but I believe that this is an innate fear in everyone even those who claim that they could make sense of it. God is truly my only solace and confidant when it comes to this fear. This train of thought could make me feel panicky and disturb my peace easily but one thing I know is that God will never give more than I can handle and that He’ll always be there.

. Losing Love

I think love is the greatest pleasure on Earth and I spent many years suffering it’s absence. I think love is THE source for support and hope. We all know how losing (romantic) love can be tragic and could make one feel like there is nothing left to live for (Emo Alert). I have a lot of emotions to express but I can’t seem to find the words. It’s like there is an iceberg within my emotions and thoughts. The pressure is definitely building and soon they will burst into words……. But, yes the aforementioned is one of my greatest fears.

. Becoming contaminated by this world: losing sight of what truly matters.

“True devotion, the kind that is pure and faultless before God the Father, is this: to care for orphans and widows in their difficulties and to keep the world from contaminating us.” (James 1: 27)

This is my prayer: that your love might become even more and more rich with knowledge and all kinds of insight. I pray this so that you will be able to decide what really matters and so you will be sincere and blameless on the day of Christ. I pray that you will then be filled with the fruit of righteousness, which comes from Jesus Christ, in order to give glory and praise to God.” (Philippians 1: 9-11)

The first scripture touches me deeply because being contaminated by this world and it’s standards is one of my fears. I always want to keep my mind on higher things and go against the current if need be, but quiet frankly this is easier said than done due to peer pressure, wanting approval and praise from others, instant gratification, satisfying my flesh, etc…

I love the second scripture and It has a special place in my heart. It’s truly the perfect prayer to pray for anyone (thanks Paul!). I love how Paul wishes that our love would “grow rich with knowledge… and insights” because it shows the intensity and complexity of love. In a way, It also explains that there is a correlation between love and wisdom. For example, you could be doing something good for someone that you love and It could look like a completely different thing to them or to onlookers. More over, it depicts love as a journey and the more we walk deeper in love, the more enjoyable and meaningful it becomes.

“….that you will be able to decide what really matters”. I LOVE this piece of scripture so much. I wish that God would give me this kind of wisdom. This links to James 1:27,  because If we are able to discern between what really matters and what doesn’t then we won’t be contaminated by this world.

(Let’s just say, I’d hate to wake up and find myself like a character in a reality show)

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3 thoughts on “Blog Challenge, Day 2: My 3 Biggest Fears”

  1. I guess admitting to fears is intimidating. But here goes one, writing something that affected me due to a relative, loved one, or a friend. What if they read it? I don’t mean to put them on blast, but I too find writing a therapeutic process.

    1. I totally know what you mean. I think being aware of your audience changes your writing experience into a self-conscious style and not as raw. That’s why I only share it with a certain people, because I always want that sort of liberation to say what I want.

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