You know guys those days that start out being good and you feel good but then one little thing happen that makes you feel unsettled. It’s funny cause I didn’t know how sad I felt until later.
When I feel down or sad, often times I don’t express it to others because I want them to have a positive and a stronger impression of me. Also, because I’m the one who often tell people to keep strong and faithful. I keep it to myself because sometimes I feel like if I expressed it verbally to people, it somehow becomes more real. And sometimes, I just suppress my sadness and embrace optimism. Though, sometimes I feel like it shows on me anyway.
Lately, I have been expressing my gratitude, sadness, and despair through a little aqua journal called “Letters to God”. The journal is super cool and it’s shaped as an envelope and every page has a a different bible verse. I like this journal a lot because I always thought that a journal is only for weak people and I refuse to think I’m weak. Also, I never saw the point of documenting sad memories because that makes them sadder.
So In my “Letters to God” journal, I write letters to God and converse with him. I love this journal so much because knowing that I’m writing letters to God makes me express myself to the fullest and throw everything on him. This journal makes me seriously weep and cry sometimes, and sometimes it makes me smile if I saw that something I had asked from God had already happened.
I just finished my letter to God today and I was weeping so hard but I feel so much better and I hope God will be by my side in the next few days and forever.
Now, I’m going to list the verses or quotes that were on the journal pages I filled up today just for inspiration:
1. In place of our exhaustion and fatigue, God will give us rest. All he asks is that we come to him … that we spend a while thinking about him, mediating on him, talking to him, listening in silence. Charles Swindoll
2. Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18